Abortion Stories

I'm 16 years old. And had a medical abortion. Heres my story; 2 months ago, I went to get a monthly checkup, and decided to take a pregancy test because I had been sexualy active, & was late on my period. The test came out positive. I was mortified. Freaking out, no clue what to do I tell the guy. He wants nothing to do with the issue. I was clueless. I went to a church and found out theres plenty of recources to raise a baby if your a single mom with no income. Still scared, I was considering it. Then I had to tell my parents... as angry as they were, words cant describe. They threatened to kick me out, unless I considered abortion, being to young and all. I disagreed until they finaly met my breaking point. My parents made everything sound so easy if I go that way. So unsure of myself, and everything going on, I cracked. They schedualed the appt... its now 2 months since the abortion. Im heart broken. I feel like a horrible person. I wish there is an easy way to move on... Unfortunatly, theres not. It sticks on you forever. I will never forget that day for as long as i live.

I never thought I would get an abortion. I felt so alone during the 4 and a half months that I was pregnant. I was scared and alone and I never got the support I needed. My boyfriend and I had been broken up when I found out I was pregnant. The first thing he told me was "It's ok we can get this pill.." WHAT? That's not what I want to hear. I want you to tell me you love me and everything is going to be ok. And we're going to get jobs and a place together and live happily ever after. I felt so alone, I confided in ONE friend who ended up telling everybody around me. I had no one. I finally mustered up the courage to tell my Mom because I wanted to keep the baby and I needed some support. To my surprise, my Mother who was always anti-abortion, asked me if I had conisdered the alternative. She was trying to be supportive but I know she didn't want me to have it either. I finally caved in and got an abortion. Today was the due date and I have not left my house in a month. I cannot sleep (It's about 4:30 AM right now). And more than anything I regret my selfish act. Its hard for me to deal with the empty feeling inside my stomach, and in my heart. I was the one and only person who was to protect him (I had a feeling it was a boy). It took me 4 and a half months to make my decision and I made the wrong one. Not a day goes by that I don't wish I had done things differently. I miss my sweet baby boy more than anything. The only thing that gets me through each painful day is that I know my precious angel is with his Grandpa in Heaven. God is holding him until I am ready to bring him into the world one day. I honestly believe that my baby is looking down on me and will come back to me. I don't want to think of it as a loss, so I will see you soon baby! I hope someday you will understand how much you are loved and missed. I wish someone had been there to tell me not to go through with it, I just hope that the next young mother who's considering the alternative will think long and hard about what they are doing and the life of pain that comes with it.

My decision was made in an irrational moment of fear. I had just moved from California to Florida to be with my boyfriend of only two months. I was 23, living a directionless life, living for the moment, and not considering the consequences. I remember crying for hours in the bathroom when I read the test. In the midst of my panic, against my boyfriends desire to keep the child, and 3000 miles from any family and friends, I decided to have the procedure done in the pill form. I cannot fathom that I was so selfish. I'd always wanted to be a mother, I still dont understand what came over me. The physical pain was severe enough to keep me in bed for days, but the emotional pain that has since washed over me is monumentally worse. I have since moved back to California, seeking a sense of stability, trying to figure out who I am, and praying for forgiveness... I never thought that I could be so numb to life as I was. Looking back, I realize that I cheated the man who loved me out of a family, I cheated myself out of a precious gift from God, cheated my future child out of a life... all for my selfish desire to be "ready" for a child. I have been experiencing a mountain of guilt since the procedure, but all that I can do is ask for God's forgiveness, pray for direction in my own life, and ask that God bless the wonderful man who stood by my side with a beautiful family and children of his own one day. Dear Lord, please forgive me... this guilt is more than I can bear.